Things To Say…

So, I have some things to say. I’ve always been a writer and a talker, but mostly a talker. However, I’ve always loved to write and I’m not sure why I don’t do it more often. Probably because I just don’t have the time. I’m a part-time, working mom, and taking care of a Pre-Schooler and 1st Grader. Ask anyone, they’ll tell you, that’s a handful. At least in my world it is. šŸ˜‰

A few things have been bothering me. Maybe you can relate to this or at least understand my points of view. I have a couple of pet peeves and I will elaborate on this. This is just my opinion, and like that even matters (haha!), but I love to write about things that others only think about. Especially things that people think but do not say.

So here we go…

Did you ever notice that we are now older but not wiser? We have more money, but we are not richer. We have more conveniences but do we have more time? We have more friends, (ie 365 friends on Facebook) but we are lonely. We have more toys, tools and gadgets and gizmos but are bored out of our minds! These are the “things” that are truly bothering me these days!

I guess to start, I am just feeling my age! I’m 43 and I do feel older, a lot older. But when I really think about it, do I feel wiser? I did get my Associates degree, and a Culinary Diploma, but I really don’t feel any “smarter”. I have friends and associates that continued on with school, obtained their Bachelor’s and now have that “dream job” or that “career they’ve always wanted”. Way to go friend. I feel like I was in that same educational “race” but then tripped on a rock or bump and I have stumbled into a learning abyss, I fell flat on my face and never crossed the finish line. I don’t believe that I’ll be advancing or moving forward because I’m stuck in that comfy rut. In my job that “pays pretty good” and that gives me that schedule that is convenient for my kids and I. But is this what I really want?? Will this “job” fulfill me and have me thinking, this is the best job for me and I’m finally happy! In the end, that is all we really want, to be happy. To feel we have accomplished and succeeded. Are 95% of us feeling this way? Are you looking for motivational Periscope videos too and signing up on Linked In to make connections with people that you will never come close to meeting or being in their “circle”?? Is it just me?

What I mean by we are richer but we have less money, is exactly that. We are making more money than we did 10 years ago, but we don’t really have money. Things are more expensive, there are now daycare costs and other costs we never even dreamed of. We are working moms, paying for daycare costs to help take care of our kids, which would cost us nothing if we were just able to stay home! Part of our pay is going to those costs, along with subscriptions to Ipsy, Sephora and Birchbox, so we can get products to help us look better and feel better about being a tired mother. We are also going broke paying for those uber convenient meals-in-a-box like Hello Fresh, Blue Apron and the like so we can get dinner on the table in 30 minutes because life is crazy and we are exhausted from working all day. The last thing we want to do is meal plan, grocery shop or cook a home cooked meal for God’s sake! Not to mention, we are buying more of those convenience foods like toaster breakfasts, lunch in a bento box, or even just forking out the $3.30 per hot lunch per day for our kiddos. Then we factor in the pizza at least once a week or even twice a week due to sports, extra curricular activities and just being down right tired! What about school pictures – 2 x a year @ at least $25 a pop, plus all of those darn fundraisers for the school? I mean, I’m all for buying some delicious cookie dough (thank you Otis) but darn, I sure as heck didn’t figure $30 into the food budget for that! Or what about the jump-a-thon, dance-a-thon, jog-a-thon or bike-a-thon fundraisers! Did you factor all of that into your budget?? Does your budget allow for all of this or do you somehow just make it work, like I do???Ā  Do you see what I mean about not having any money? Because after all this, I am pretty much broke. Well, I have money for the wine and bourbon that we feel we need to have because we are so stressed about money (and kids! haha)…so after buying that, we definitely have no money. (I’m kidding, but you get the idea right???)

We have all these conveniences but do we have more time? We have a microwave that can “nuke” our food in minutes, yet we still spend hours in the kitchen! We spend hours on You Tube and Facebook watching foodie and recipe videos and we still have no idea what to cook for dinner! We have a cell phone where we can order food in minutes, buy tickets, shop for anything anywhere at anytime, check our emails, voicemails, talk to people with the push of a button, order groceries, buy something and have it delivered in 2 hours, look up information and ask Google or Alexa for anything. Yet we are still rushed, pressed for time, stressed about everything we have to get done and have even more to do now than we did 20 years ago. I’m constantly hearing my parents say, “When I was your age, we didn’t have to worry about cell phones or giving our kids tablets or electronic devices!”….Oh my gosh, how in the world did you order a pizza, check the weather,do that book report or get your kids to listen??? The answers were, call it in, watch the nightly news at 10 pm, go to the library and spank them! But these things took time! So, if we are saving SO much time by having a cell phone (ordering online), looking up the weather online or using the internet for that book report, where is all the saved time going?? I figure that would save us about 4 – 5 hours right there! Where did it go? And then there is the hour that we saved by microwaving our dinner. Plus the two hours that we didn’t waste grocery shopping at the physical store, hmmm…that is at least 8 hours! Dang, I could do A LOT with 8 more hours in the day! Even if you cut that in half, that is four freaking hours! Well, I suppose I didn’t get to level 255 in Candy Crush overnight.

I never used to have 365 friends. At least I don’t think I had that many in my “contacts” or “address book” as it was called then. I had maybe 30 or 40? So, now that Facebook helped me find all these people that “I might know”, I seem to be lingering around the 365 mark of “Friends”. Thank you Facebook for also importing them ALL into my contacts on my phone.Ā  Did I know I was doing that at the time?? Now I have eight, yes that is 8, Michelle’s in my phone that I’m pretty sure I have no idea who they are but you seem to think they are my “friends”. Well, I may know 1 of them, and we might have been close at one time. (This is an example! One of my best-est friends is a Michelle!) Do you see my point?? So, why is it that I feel lonelier than ever? It could be that I’m a 43-year-old mom with younger aged children and most of the moms my age kids are graduating high school. Or it could be that most ladies my age are settled down in a house and I’m now in an apartment. Or it could be because stupid Facebook said and led me to believe these people would be my friend and they are not! I might hear from about 25 of them on a daily basis, if that! In fact, just recently that number of 365 dwindled to 273 and not one of those 92 people even reached out to say hey, why did you delete me? Hmm, not so much a friend in the end. We use social media so much these days like Instagram, Snapchat, Facebook, Linked In, so why do we feel so disconnected? We are losing our “connections” by putting our face into an electronic device instead of picking up the phone and saying “hey, I miss you, let’s talk”.Ā  But…we are saving time by not picking up the phone and having that 2-hour phone call and texting instead…so where did those 2 hours go that we saved?? Well, we spend 1 hour on the phone texting that person, then spent 1 hour playing Farmville? However we also sent 3 emails, made 2 appointments and listened to 4 voicemails. *Sigh*

So nowadays, we have less time, we are busier, more stressed, have less money and feel lonelier. Internet to blame? Social Media? Most people say that social media brings their family closer. Hmm, I have to disagree myself. I’m sure others would disagree as well. They would see that picture of the girl’s night out that they didn’t get invited to and be like “that bxxxx didn’t invite me!”. Hmmm, thatĀ has ever happened to me. (RIGHT!)

We have all these cool gadgets from Pampered Chef, Harbor Freight, Best Buy, Fry’s, we have tablets and devices, game systems and toys…oh so many toys, but we are bored. Our kids can’t sit and “play” for five minutes without saying “I don’t have anything to do”…as I look around in the SEA of toys surrounding them. We can’t wait in a line for 3 minutes without pulling out our cell phone and checking our Facebook feed or sending a text. We are constantly looking for that instant gratification or quick fix. We are all a bunch of junkies! That’s it. We are junkies who haven’t much money, we are short on time, without real friends, with too much stuff.

I have recently moved from state to state. I’ve lost touch with some of my friends, well all of them really. I wonder why they don’t call or text even, but then I realize I haven’t called either. It’s been a hard few months transitioning from a home to an apartment. It’s still hard. I have been purging like crazy because like I said above, we have too much “stuff”. It’s all been a learning experience.

I hope to make some new friends here or at least reconnect with some old ones. I don’t have much time because I am a busy working mother, but hey maybe you can come over and I’ll open up a Hello Fresh bag and that bottle of bourbon I was talking about?

I hope you liked my rant and my “deep thoughts”. I do love writing and hope I get to do it again soon…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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I Feel the Need, the Need to Write…

Anyone else get this 80’s term? Maybe this will help, “I feel the need, the need for speed!”. Whoever thought that would be iconic one day.Ā  (Top Gun…if you didn’t get it!) Maybe something in my writing will be iconic one day. Ha…one can dream right?

I am sad that I haven’t been writing. I haven’t had that “release”. Where you feel that things and emotions are bottling up inside of you and you might explode if you don’t get it out…do you ever feel that? Well maybe you need to write. Let it out. Let it go. “Let it goooo!” (Little Frozen reference there)

It’s about to get REAL…

I can’t believe I haven’t written since November. I have been slacking. That’s probably also the last time I have felt “creative”. It’s so sad really. I was really into Stampin Up and thought I was good at it but now I’m not so sure. I guess when you don’t get much business and sales you start doubting yourself. I’ve done a lot of that…doubting…

Let’s take a poll, shall we?

How many of you have done home based businesses? (Hands raised…ME!) Now, how many businesses have you done? …. Let’s see…Mary Kay, Stampin Up, Premier Jewelry, Thirty-One, It Works… ok so that’s 5. That’s not too bad I guess. I guess most of us stay at home moms are looking for the next best thing. The next thing that will get us out of the house for a “break” for some “me” time. Because why? Because “Mommying” is HARD. Being a mom, I’ve realized after 5 years, is the HARDEST job, EVER. Sometimes probably just as stressful as being an air traffic controller. Well almost.

How do I know this? Because I think I lost 6 months of my life when I went out to lunch with my 2 toddlers today, by myself. Because I have 2 toddlers that are 19 months apart. I wasn’t by myself, actually, I was with a few other mom’s from my daughter’s pre-school. I said ok to the lunch invitation in hopes of meeting the “cool” moms, making new friends and just feeling accepted. I knew that it would be tough. I knew that Sophie would not want to sit in a “baby” chair and would try to leave the table after 3 bites. I knew that Wyatt would start acting cranky after barely eating anything. The kids had already been at school for 3 hours and I knew they just wanted food and a nap (or quiet time).Ā  So did I too. Want them to have nap time that is. Well, lunch went well, it was great meeting new people. They were helpful letting Sophia sit on her lap and watch our things when I had to take the kids to go potty, twice. Of course my son had to poop while we were there. I let him go by himself, but thank goodness one of the other moms was in there and came out to let me know my son needed me. Of course. All the while Sophie kept running away from the table. I finally strapped her into the baby chair much to her chagrin. I even pulled out the crayons, small tube of play-doh and coloring books to help keep my kids busy. (Since the cute paper puzzle dinosaurs the restaurant gave us were not working)

One of the moms commented, “you’re so good, look at you with your bag of stuff for the kids!”…Um well, that’s one way to look at it, put nicely. It’s more like, I know my kids are going to misbehave at some point and they’re gonna need some shit to do. Hahaha!

So that’s cute that other moms thing I’m prepared, that does make me feel good. But don’t think for a second it’s because I have my shit together, because trust me, I don’t.

As I left the restaurant $22 later and with 2 takeout boxes of leftovers of all the kids food they didn’t touch, I vowed that I wouldn’t go back to that restaurant without reinforcements…or any restaurant without a “play place” for that matter. We all decided to do that next time.

I don’t feel like I have “bad” kids, I just think that the timing was off for them, they were tired and also needed “something” to do. It’s hard keeping a 2-5 year old “entertained”. If you don’t believe me, just ask a mom or a dad of one.

Anyone, hope you enjoyed this writing and maybe got a little chuckle out of it. I know I did!